Change is inevitable , but it doesnt mean that something that once happened wasn't sincere.

Okay this is totally irrelevant considering that I have English paper tomorrow, but heck.. I'm still considered as practicing my English here right? Literally. Oh well. Anyways, I recently took out my braces and he hasn't quit insulting me yet. With braces also insult without braces also insult D: OH NOO. No that's not my point, my point exactly is that when I looked back, 2 years flashed by so fast. I hadn't even got a time to sit down and asked myself "Vanes, what have you achieved this 2 years? " . I know that sounded a tad bit ridiculous but you can't help the fact it's true. I reminisce on all the months that have passed, how time changed everything, feelings changed, how things do not change but it's the people that do... and I've come to realize, despite this on going change in my life physically and emotionally... I've came to my senses that I actually grew a lot mentally. ( Physically abit stunted la )

I understand now that people who seemed so wise once can be the biggest immature you've ever known. I see people being judgemental all the time talking about each other behind their backs not knowing that they themselves have flaws to talk about too. I know of people that say they hate people who are two-faced, but they themselves are the biggest contradict alive. I've learnt that, to survive in such a harsh world like that you gotta make sure you wear an armor beforehand to protect yourself completely from being broken down. It's not being selfish, it's just being protective of your own feelings. Today is not a joke ,it's to mold ourselves to be tougher in order to face the ugly truth.

I realized that I do not have to sail through all 7 seas to learn something meaningful. Throughout these years was enough to make me realize I've truly came to understand what people meant now when they say we unintentionally hurt the people that love us most. And regardless of what kinda love, it works vise versa, the people we care for most, hurt us in the end. And there'll be times when the person that puts you at the top of their list somehow becomes the one that is most insignificant in your life but the biggest jerk that ruins your day becomes more than everything you ever wanted. You can't say you don't agree on that can you ? :D Because life is weird like that. Or at least just mine.

Growing up ,

Is being in a room filled with challenges,

When a miserable tiny leak,

Sinks a great ship.

Growing up,

Is getting on a bus not knowing where it leads,

When all you have is yourself.

And every action brings a sweet responsibility.

Growing up,

Is an adventure.

Where you explore almost everything to nothing,

Setting a goal and being seemingly positive.

When love can be a bliss,

or instead it leaves a deep gash only for you to be scared.

Growing up ,

is learning to accept every single rotten apple as God's creation.

And every second is a birth of a new opportunity.

A start of something new.