Vulnerable.

Hello there, yes I am aware that I only update my blog when I get emotional, but honestly, there is no where more suitable to let out my feelings than this thing.

Can anybody please tell me whats really wrong with me? Why do I feel a certain way that I shouldn't be feeling, worry a certain way I shouldn't worry, care about people who'll never care for me, change for someone who constantly wants me to be better and better. Why do I feel so.. suffocated?

Sometimes ,when this life I live in constantly have people coming in to judge my footsteps, tell me I'm on the wrong track, demand what should I do, refrain me from doing certain things and think that I've changed merely because my curiosity level rises at times...I really miss my sister. ...

.. the ONE and ONLY person , who will never judge me no matter how matters might seem ugly or hopeless, I know she never fails to back me up. She stood firm to fight for me when my relatives doubted me. She cleared my name when people thought me wrong. Most importantly, she believed in whatever I was doing and guide me when I'm wrong. She never judged me. She trusted me. She loves me .

I honestly feel so lost and helpless without her.